Hey Blog Peeps…What’s Kickin’?
WARNING: This blog was done out of shear wisdom for myself and thinking out loud. It may benefit you too or maybe inspire you. Odds are however, you will just think “What’s going on?” This is normal. Some side effects include multi-tasking, playing Hearts or Minesweeper, throwing things, or sleep. Who knows though, maybe this is true for you. Feel free to comment away no matter who you are…..Enjoy
Been a week and a half since my last update and even though it doesn’t seem like a long time, it really is. A person in a supermarket once told me, “Life goes fast when you’re young. When you’re old, it speeds.” It feels like just yesterday I walked into this University a freshman, timid but outgoing, ready to conquer everything Walsh threw at me and more. I didn’t know what I would do afterward, or even a major at the time, but I knew I wanted to be BIG. That one day, I would be a household name in whatever I did. Today I woke up, with the flu nonetheless, realizing that I am now in the stage where I take the next big step into making the man I saw myself becoming. With the exception of a few last big projects before graduation, this is it. Walsh brought its “A” game to me, and I feel as though I’ve played quite well. But now what…?
It’s a scary realization thinking that your path is about to be completely new. The carefully laid road you’ve strode down for so long is about to abruptly end and it is your choice where to walk, or blindly leap from now on. I mean, for the past 17 years of my life, I’ve done the same thing. Every kid does. I dreamed of the glory summer would bring. I knew I would be free from class and homework and on my own to discover what life is all about. Summer is the education to your schooling. Of course I’ve had to work, but it is in summer where you learn about life, laugh with a P.I.C (Partner in Crime), and make a memory or two (or twenty eight). Then, always too soon, the hot days of summer fade into the crisp days of fall and you return to schooling. That’s what I’ve done. That’s what most seniors have done. Our lives were planned for us by the “man”…..or “woman”…depending on the dominant figure in your household that said either you go to school or we’ll hate you. Well not hate you, of course our parents still love us, you would just get the, “I’m not mad, I’m just disappointed speech,” and nobody likes that. Anyways, I digress.
The point to all this is, besides me clearing my mind on this cyber-technological cork-board, is that now, my future is unknown. I’ve done well in school my whole life. I’ve been on honor roll and Honor Societies, Student Governments and athletic teams, Resident Assistant, writer, and all kinds of things. But I’ve got a question now. I’m good at school. Life after? I dunno…
We dream of life when we are “big” when we are little. We dream of being a firefighter diving into a burning building to save the hopeless victim at the last second, a doctor curing patients and helping people, or a pro-athlete having the crowd chant your name after hitting the last second shot. Somewhere however, the life where our dreams exist fades aware and reality settles in out of necessity. Face it, if this weren’t true, NASA would have more astronauts then the Vatican has Catholics on Easter. Who didn’t want to walk in space when they were young? But now the real world settles in for good as life is knocking at my proverbial door. That means a job or more school…
The application process of getting a job our going to grad school outside of college is a bear. You need your resume, your recommendations, your portfolio, your test scores all while hopefully not losing your mind. When you finally send it out, rejections can come left and right, competition is high, and if you don’t like bragging about yourself or look good in a low cut shirt (Oh….Snap…..That’s a joke…..Please no angry e-mails), the person on the other side of the table doesn’t care if you’ve been good at school. They want to know if you will benefit them after school. Bottom line…
But I’m not ready to give up on my dreams yet. It’s not a Peter Pan envy or anything, I just don’t want my life to become routine. I promised myself two things when I was young thanks to my mom who was all about setting goals. After all, my sister said since she was in KinderCare she wanted to be a doctor, and just last year, she did just that graduating from med-school (Walsh Alum I’ll throw in…Go Cavs!). I love her to death but that’s pressure. So I promised myself two things for life….1) To never have a job that felt like work……2) To always be happy. So far I have stayed as close to these two things as I possibly can. True, life has thrown things at me (some of them feeling like small punches and others like grenades), but I’ve never given up on these two things. I’m a fun guy, and I have found a major I love and it fits with my dream. I could be the next Bob Costas or Andy Rooney. Lord knows I have the eyebrows…..
I may not know what the correct path is for me and I may not be taking the right way to get there, but my life here at Walsh and over the past four years has made me realize that it will be ok. The sun will rise tomorrow, I’ll get up, and life goes on. I’m not afraid of walking in the dark. I don’t need to have the specifics. All I have are my two promises to myself and my dream of being someone everyone knows in the world of sports casting or journalism. So if you’re in college, about to go into college, young, old, big, or Roloff (1/2 of them at least), don’t let someone decide for you who you are. Be yourself. Some people are focused, others, like me, aren’t. But that’s ok. We’re ok. It’s ok not to know. It’s how every great adventure starts…
Hopefully this has made you think, made you laugh, or made you wonder where the past ten minutes have gone. Hey, you read it by free will. I’ve just been receiving a lot of pressure from peers, professors, friends, and even strangers about what I am doing next. So much so that it made me feel like because I wasn’t exactly sure, it made me feel not good enough to them, like I wasn’t ready for this ”real world thing” because I haven’t settled yet do give up on dreaming. I may never settle. But to answer my question before, I now know thanks to this University and those I’ve met, been influenced by, and befriended while here. Not to mention my family and friends back home through my life. Trust me, for all these years I may have been good at school….But I KNOW I’ll be great at life…
You will too. All you have to do is dream…
-Tyler